I am young, and so far in life I've experienced things that I would rather have not, but on the bright side, those things are equipping me with the tools that I need to get through life.
Our lifes are always changing and I learned yesterday that nothing is ever really safe.
Nothing is ever really true, you may think it is, but how do you really know?
How do we know what is the truth and what isn't? How do we know that the people around you, the people you love are really what you think they are? And what do we do when we discover that what we thought was the truth, turned out to be nothing, and suddenly everything changes.
I know that life is sad and unbearable at moments, I am living it now, but what I also know is that when things go wrong, we always have one consistent thing that is always there, and will never let you down. I'm talking about our art, our dance.
Dance is the one thing I love the most, but it can also be the one thing I hate the most. It is also the one thing that makes me the most happy, but at the same time is the one thing that makes me the most unhappy. But despite all of that I know that it is consistent, that I can't get rid of it and I don't want to and I know that it is our home. I know that people in our lifes may not always be there for you, but dance will.
Bad events in my life have actually given me the inspiration and energy to take action and do things I've been putting off in dance for a while.
So this evening I wrote to someone who I am dying to work with, whos work I absolutely love but never had the courage to act upon it. So now I have, and we'll see what happens.
Maybe bad things happen for a reason, maybe this was the reason that bad things happened, they happend to give me the courage to do things that actually mean much more to me and to make things happen which in turn would make me happier in the long run.
Anyway, there are times in life when I remember what I have and dancing is one of those things and it's one of those things that you have too, so don't forget it, because it won't forget you.
Moving on from that, I'm performing this Sunday in a research and performance event.
I'll be spending the day in the TotalKunst Gallery in Edinburgh, improvising and experimenting with images and ideas for a new work whilst being watched by the public through a big glass window. The event is durational and lasts for about 6 hours.
You can catch me in the gallery between 12 and 7pm. The passers by on the street become the audience and anything may happen. Svenja Hamel will also be joining me to direct me through some improvisations and tasks, so we'll see how it all goes.
This is happening at the Forest Cafe, Total Kunst Gallery, 3 Bristo Place, Edinburgh.
I hope to see you there.
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